I’m starting a one hundred day yoga challenge today. I didn’t want to be trendy and start on the first day of the year, but I needed to start and I got a friend to agree to join my challenge and she chose today. It’s not my first 100 day yoga challenge. In fact the last one ended with a fizzle. But I did it. This time, I’m prepared with different types of yoga. Let’s do this.
I need to rise above the anxiety and depression and the craziness that has engulfed my life these past few weeks. I’ve never had it all “together”. I know that having it all together is not an achievable, but, I need to have some kind of normalcy.
The additional troubles that I’ve been going through is something that I have to rise above. Once again, I’m at a point in my life where I have to give the baton away. “Show me what you’re going to do with it. Please don’t tear my heart out, again.”
In the meantime, I feel like I need to go back to the scheduled life that I was beginning a few weeks ago. It was structured and it was full of self care. Even though it feels so hard to care for myself right now. I need to take charge of my life again.
In the big scheme of things, self destructive behaviors will not benefit me in the long run. Either I get on my feet or I fail.
I really don’t want to fail. And I really want to take charge.
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My “week in the life of a professional patient” started out to be a sarcastic follow-along of my day to day struggle with the invisible.
But today, it turned serious. Today, I visited my psychiatrist. I had to make an emergency appointment. Not to talk about meds, but about my latest drama that doesn’t have to do with my health. She told me some things that scared the crap out of me. She told me that things may not change since it hasn’t yet. She told me to be prepared for that. How does one prepare for that? I mean, I think about this possibility as I turn on “A Charlie Brown Christmas” and rip open my delivery of the book “Wild” by Cheryl Strayed and wonder… What will I do, if things don’t change? How do I prepare? What are my realistic options. Well, as I prepare to be prepared… Tune in tomorrow for Osteopathic manipulative treatment in my professional patient series.